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[03 Nov 2009|11:50pm] |
It's getting really competitive in school ever since the start of the new semester but fortunately, not much has changed. It's gonna be hard to keep up my GPA. Insya'Allah, I will not get complacent and continue to strive to improve.
In the other hand, I need to start making cash to go on a holiday in late December. Please let this be true! Especially after last year's Bali trip. Hahaha I kinda missed out on much. What with my close friends and great company plus experiences.
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[08 Sep 2009|10:00pm] |
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Recently, I feel as though I have outdone myself in controlling my emotions and keeping them in check. There have been so many things which have been getting on my nerves nowadays, especially teens but I have yet to react ungentlemanly. Somehow, that seems wrong since I was a teenager myself once and not too long ago too. Then again, although it was challenging for those who know me (I assume), I never did/said the things I often come across first-hand. WHY MUST PEOPLE PLAY MUSIC SO LOUD IN PUBLIC TRANSPORT and why are some of my peers still arguing like little kids when they are discussing important issues!!? Okay hold on. Bush and NATO, you're both guilty too.
This actually brings me to my actual point - maturity. I sincerely believe that maturity comes with age and experience but there is no exact way to measure it. How can you really define the maturity of a person? I'm not sure myself but there seems to be an aura surrounding one whose words are of naturally delicate choices which always seem to invoke thought but not offend. Well, maybe at first impressions they might. Mature individuals always have a sense of awareness of the people around them. Not only that, it occurs to me that people with a decent/lame and unoffending sense of humour are ones with good opinions, give good advice and act with great dignity provided the occassion arises. Most people just do not seem to want to know them better. Kudos to the former though for not parading themselves.
Frankly speaking, I'm surprised myself that nowadays I've been holding back myself pretty comfortably whenever ppl say shit things that makes you wonder whether they are really that stupid and speaking without giving much thought. (Note: Lame conversations/remarks with the element of funny which have no intentions to hurt are a-okay.) The irony, isn't it? Hence, I shall specify my stance. Supposedly and in most cases, maturity comes with age and experience. Tadaaaahhh. There are those whom are opinionated that even young ppl display maturity. Well duh but only to a certain extent. A young individual might display maturity but with little experience of the world, things they might do/say reasonably might be adequate yet incomplete at the same time. Wait till 21 you're adults okay, dear young ones.
That said, I feel incomplete. Heck, there is no such thing such as a totally complete person since human beings are flawed but there are individuals that exist and are revered albeit secretly by others including peers who see them as a role models. There are many things I have not achieved in my life but I'll keep on battling away. I'm sure there are many like me who share the same sentiments. The day we think we've achieved greatness, is the day we fail our utmost.
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[19 Jul 2009|06:17pm] |
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Last night, I listened to the most WTF moment I have heard for a long time, albeit from someone who was relating the actual conversation for me. I shall attempt not to exaggerate the words used and shall try to recreate it to the best of my memory. It's short by the way. Haha.
Girl 1: I think women wearing the tudung (aka headscarf) shouldn't date.
Girl 2 and Girl 3: *puzzled look* Why?
Girl 1: They should know that by dating, it tarnishes the image [I think she meant of Islam] when they hold hands and stuff.
[Insert: Not true. Dating does not mean you NEED to hold hands, hug and kiss although it is generally accepted by the world today. That's secularism for us.]
Girl 2: Then, how do women wearing the tudung marry if they do not date? They are people too.
Girl 1: They can have arranged marriages, like my parents.
Girl 3: In general, there's rarely love in arranged marriages.
Girl 1: NO! My parents love each other very much.
WTF, right? Worst part is that Girl 1 is a Muslim herself. Highly ignorant stuff coming supposedly from someone who is "mature". Not that religious, but "mature" in society's standards. Well, I think she's lame and ignorant. Grow up, girl.
Is that the stigma that's enveloping my fellow female Muslim youths? Seriously, that's just sad. I hope it's only for a small percentage. Heck, even most of my non-Muslim friends have higher tolerance levels than Girl 1. OMG I wish I was there when she said that and I would have put her down like the rat she was. [p.s: I'm just using the rat comparison because I'm watching a rat zombie flick right now. Haha!]
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[02 Jun 2009|01:07am] |
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Believe me, I have so much to say but somehow I keep saying the wrong things at the right times. That light that I hold is flickering and I don't think I have that much of a time left to share. I'm uncertain. What is in store, may I ask? I know you aren't able to reply 'cos me being me, I never gave you the chance to but why aren't you?
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[07 May 2009|09:31pm] |
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A little piece of me grows old.
I keep on walking down this road.
I have seen a million people change,
but I am still the same.
Down with the flu and on medical leave on my birthday. Hahaha still memorable though. I thank those for the well-wishes. All are duly aappreciated.
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| a wonderful weekend. |
[13 Apr 2009|12:14am] |
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I've been watching this awesome show How I Met Your Mother for the past few weeks and I give it a thumbs up. My brother and I have been watching the episodes together before he was enlisted into the police force and frankly speaking, other than the witty jokes the show has continually been coming up with, the company and fact that my brother and I spend time together is even more awesome. Other than this, we also enjoy our episodes of South Park and American Dad together as well as our twice-a-year annual McDonalds breakfast meal together after our Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Hari Raya Aidiladha prayers respectively. I think my mother knows but she has never asked us about it. Hahaha just the way we like it. It would take me to lift a boulder to say this to my brother upfront but I really do care for him like a family should but I know he knows and that is good enough for me. By the way, it really is weird for a guy to say this to another guy and it has nothing to do with ego.
Last night was a high for me, not literally but close but today brought me back to level ground. Sometimes, it is so easy to dream and wonder how something could feel when you are close in proximity to something that you desire (ie like the car you've always dreamt of and the holiday you've always wanted). Somehow, the best things in life after birth aren't pre-planned and when they do happen, less things could ever taste sweeter. I do not even know my standing but the only way to go is to look ahead. Who knows for sure, right?
Been a busy weekend but the moment of the past week was when Imran said to the Ellia in Simpang last night that her boyfriend must have felt warm around us, considering we're so welcoming and nice. I was sitting next to him and I couldn't help feel good about myself and the good thing going on between a bunch of friends, with the right mixture. Syarif, Khaliesah and Farah who weren't present - we missed your respective presence. Soon, a reunion beckons. Insya'Allah.
Alhamdulillah. I'm thankful I have this concoction of ppl around me at this point of my life. Insya'Allah, it may long continue.
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| what a song. |
[16 Mar 2009|12:53am] |
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really like this song. found a nice video to go with it too but be warned because it is a girly video. heh.
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[14 Mar 2009|04:00pm] |
WHAT THE HECK.
Some chick from China, because I know it is an overseas call, just called my number twice (1st was for 1 sec & 2nd was for 6 sec) just to ask whether I could speak in Mandarin. Then, she hung up.
I have to pay for that? Damn it.
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[04 Feb 2009|08:12pm] |
I have this urge to pull out my hair on the sides after finding out that there is a huge crack on my mp3 player screen. It is going to cost me S$123.30 to buy the screen plus shipping costs. That and I have to find a shop or go to Jurong just for someone to change the screen for me.
All these because I made fun of ppl who won't be receiving GST credits this yr for the past week. Karma exists and lucky me it is only money.
Haish I feel sad lah sia'...
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[30 Jan 2009|10:33pm] |
My visit to the camp doctor on Wednesday was greeted with breaking news.
Torn knee ligaments - meniscal & posterior. The high possibility that has existed since July '07. Hahahha talking about sucking it all in.
I think I need a break.
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| spread my arms wide and high. |
[01 Dec 2008|10:51pm] |
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If someone would to ask me which impossible thing I would want to do at this present moment, it would be I wanna fly. I personally don't think birds feel free just from flying but imagining drifting in the vast blue sky, amongst the clouds and feeling the wind against my streamlined body shape makes me feel light-headed and enthralled.
That's why although kids say the darndest things, their ideas revolutionize the mind, seeking reprieve at the most delicate at times.
Nothing is easy. That includes keeping a pet crab.
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[23 Oct 2008|07:53pm] |
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Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence
And leave me with my sins.
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage
For what resembles rage again.
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[23 Oct 2008|07:34pm] |
WHAT THE FEEEEESSHHHH!!!!
There's an influx of (macho, my ass) MALES, so to speak, plucking their eyebrows.
FOR FUDGE!!
I'm sorry to tell you but that's just plain queer. No really.
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[05 Oct 2008|06:47pm] |
The ending's the same.
The world will not change.
The answer is clear.
ANNIHILATION.
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[28 Sep 2008|12:29pm] |
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I like talking to Zaki. Makes me improve my ailing grasp of the English language, no thanks to life in the army. Heh. Ironically, his father is the sub-editor of Berita Harian.
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[28 Sep 2008|12:27pm] |
SNUFF.
song of the year.
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[20 Aug 2008|11:27pm] |
I have been so absorbed with army lately, okay for the last few months, that I missed my mother's birthday on the 19th. It was bitterly disappointing.
On another note, my sister's birthday was on the 20th, the very following day of course and what a special day.
That day will never come again. EVER. To think that my sister only realised that last night at 2300hrs, courtesy of yours truly. Haha! Anyway, happy birthday, Sis! Belated, I mean.
...and my computer crashed. Bummer.
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[29 Jul 2008|02:19am] |
Despite all the discontentment that surrounds me, I'm kinda happy myself. Life's too short to be unhappy most of the time. Gotta take it easy, but seriously of course. Why be the one to suffer when insignificant ones attempt time and time again to make life all the more miserable each time? Life's great and I have to make myself feel great to be in sync.
No Japan. No Bali. I still have my religion, family, friends and my bed. That's all that matters the most.
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